“Why is the world so broken?” This is a question that is often asked, and it comes in many different formats. As a Christian, I would give you the answer that the world is breaking since sin entered the world. That the enemy, Satan, is doing precisely what he promised he would do with all of us: steal, kill, and destroy.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10
But I believe we need to take this a step further. For instance, a lot of people state that they can be good without God. I have tried this lifestyle before. I have tried other religions, and have also attempted to live without religion. I have personally found that there’s truly no hope in the nothingness. How can one be “good” without having something greater than then self to draw knowledge from.
In the movie School for Scoundrels, there is a quote that actor Billy Bob Thornton’s character, Dr. P, says that resonates with this whole “learning from me” or “I can be good all by myself” type of mentality:
“You can’t help yourself because yourself sucks. If you’re helping yourself, that means you’re being helped by a complete asshole.”
The world is broken, to me, partly because people are not seeking out healing. There seems to be more intention in placing blame, than in allowing forgiveness to take root in our hearts. We seek “justice” and in that effort, we stay low on the dirt. Things cannot change because once a fight is won, its time to go fight the next one.
But what if we lived in a world that got completely obsessed with healing from the deepest inside, towards the most external outside? This is the part where my broken little self decided to change something. Perhaps I would never get justice for the unfairness that has taken place in my life. Perhaps the bad things that were done to me as a child will be just that: bad things that nobody can/will/want to take back. So what do I do?
Should I seek out revenge against every man out there that has ever crossed my path? Should I join a women’s movement in which men are discussed as being beneath women or as our equals? For what is equality if the ground is uneven? Where do we begin? Healing is needed to proceed with clarity. I’m am selling you a concept that I have personally failed to establish. I am certainly not against groups that seek out justice in an area, but be fair. If you seek out equality, give it. If you seek out love, give it. Being argumentative and combative have been my instruments of war. I know firsthand that a fighting attitude many times gives you what you want, but not the peace that you truly need. Fists are up every single time.
Yet, the times that I gave healing a try I saw something different take place in me. The things that stressed me out before, that hurt me, that brought anxiety to my heart began to dissipate. It got to the point where I did not recognize myself. Who is this person? I started to question whether I had become weak. A sucker. A push around.
However, if feeling that level of peace meant that others would see me as weak, a sucker, and a push around: so be it. This is the part where, in order to heal, we need to learn another little skill called: not taking to heart what others say.
Heal. Breathe. Live.